Not holding back, Demi Lovato bravely opens up in her new documentary, Dancing With the Devil, about healing from the trauma of past sexual abuse.
In her harrowing new YouTube docuseries, Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil, the 28 years old star reveals that her drug dealer sexually assaulted her when she was too out of it to give her consent. “I didn’t just overdose. I was taken advantage of”. The “Heart Attack” singer says about the night of July 23 during which she has said she almost died.
“When they found me. I was naked, blue. I was literally left for dead. After he took advantage of me”. The songstress reveals. “When I woke up in the hospital. They asked if we had had consensual sex. There was one flash. I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said yes. It wasn’t until a month. After the overdose that I realized. ‘You weren’t in any state of mind. To make a consensual decision.'”
Lovato then makes the shocking revelation, admitting that after she returned from the hospital, she called the same dealer who had sold her the fentanyl-laced heroin, sexually violated her. “I wanted to rewrite his choice. Of violating me. I wanted it now to be my choice. And he also had something. That I wanted. Which were drugs,” she says.
“I called him back and said. ‘No, I’m gonna f**k you’. It didn’t fix anything. It didn’t take anything away. And it made me feel worse. That, for some reason. My way of taking the power back. All it did. Was bring me back to my knees. Begging God for help….I ended up getting high. I thought. How did I pick up the same drugs. That put me in the hospital? I was, like. Mortified at my decisions.”
In the documentary, the “Don’t Forget” singer is emotional as she speaks about dealing with the trauma that she faced not only from the night of her overdose but with her alleged rape.
“When I was a teenager. I was in a very similar situation. I lost my virginity in a rape”. The singer reveals.
“We were hooking up but I said. ‘Hey, this is not going any farther. I’m a virgin. And I don’t want to lose it. And that. Didn’t matter to them. They did it anyway. And I internalized it. And I told myself it was my fault. Because I still went in the room. With him. I still hooked up with him.”
Lovato says she revealed what had happened to her with adults. in spite of that, her alleged attacker “never got in trouble for it.”
“They never got taken out. Of the movie, they were in. I always kept it quiet. Because I’ve always had something to say. I don’t know. I’m tired of opening my mouth. Here’s the tea.”